I guess I can start where I last left off. That being Pride Fest here in Lovely San Antonio. While I was working for Jason at Pride Fest selling t-shirts, I met a guy, who would later be a great friend of mine. (I didn’t know that at the time.) I had a blast selling the shirts and hanging out with the guys. It was good to be out of the house. I think at that point I was needing people to help me out of a bit of a depression i was in, and hanging out with the guys did help me. We ended up selling around 3 grand worth of shirts, and gave several away as prizes. The day was so fun.

After the Festival. I needed to get into my work before I went on vacation to my family reunion.

I know that I have written about my family reunion before. It is always a fun week of sitting by a lake and having a good time drinking with my family. Almost everyone was there that normally goes. Thankfully this year my father didn’t go. I like my dad at times. Its just that there are times when he annoys the hell out of me. For the most part those times are when he tells me I need to find a good woman and settle down and have kids. I always feel like telling him that it wont matter because i am not like him and do not want to have his life. But then again being that I am gay and he does not know about it does help that fact. But I really donut feel that telling him that I like boys would help out the situation between us. I am sure if you have read my blogs before that you know most of the crap between us. So I will not bore you guys with the information again.

The reunion was a fantastic time as always. I went to Austin the day before and stayed with my sister before we headed out and picked up a cousin along the way to Shreveport. We were going to be staying with my aunt and uncle and their two kids. This aunt and uncle are my favorites out of both sides of my family. I think that since they are very close to my age might be the reason why. That or maybe its the fact that they have two really cute kids, that I just adore beyond measure. After we got to Shreveport we dropped off our cousin at the hotel he was staying at, then we headed to my uncles house.

Me and my family did do something that would be worth mentioning. We went and saw my grandmother. We decided to go in waves at seeing her. I went with my great uncle, and aunt and cousin. My grandmother looked good. Now the last time i saw my grandmother she looked bad. She was skinny and looked like she was falling apart. But now she looks good, shes gained some weight. The only thing is that she does not remember any of the family.

My family and i sat down with her, and i knew that no matter what she would not remember me, or the family. But a small part me me had hoped. She told my cousins as we sat down with her, that she didn’t know who we were but wanted such nice people like us to be a part of her family. We spent a bit of time chatting with her. But i could not take it, i had to leave. I got up and walked out of there. I had to go sit in a hall by myself for a few minutes. She was not the grandmother i remembered. It broke my heart to see her like this. To see her not be able to remember any of the family. I sat in the hallway for several minutes crying. My aunt came by to see if i was ok. I told her about my grandmother and she understood. Since me and my sister are the oldest grandkids we have the most memories of her the way she was before. But things change in everyones life.

Most of the family that met up there stayed at the house, my other uncle and his two daughters. But we did go and have a great dinner at a little hole in the wall diner with all of the family that was in town. About 20 or so of us. We descended on to the restaurant like a pack of wolves on a injured grizzly bear. Dinner was uneventful, thankfully. There was family there that always causes drama. We headed to the house to rest. We stayed the night with several members of the family.

The drive in to the cabins was fun. Me and my sister got lost for a few minutes after we left my uncles. But we finally got back on track and was about 20 minutes behind my uncle on the road. He called and yelled at me saying that if i passed him he would be very upset with me and my sister. Some of you guys reading this might know that i do tend to have a lead foot at times. (I think i inherited that from my mom.) We did end up passing him on I30 in Arkansas i was doing about over 80 and he was doing about 70 to 75. He didn’t get mad at me over it after all.

The week was a great time. I sat around and talked to several member of my family and hung out like normal. My sister and my cousin Sean and I stayed in the same cabin at the far end of the camp away from most of the people. I think it was because my other cousins knew we would be drinking a lot and didn’t want us to influence the younger kids.

We did have some good times. We played domino games, and several drinking games. There was a lot of booze in the cabin. I think that any given time there was at least two bottles of liquor and a case of beer. I did have fun spending time in my with my family and eating way to much. Staying up late, drinking too much, and just having a good ole time. This reunion nothing major happened unlike others in the past. No major incidents, but then again something does always happen at family reunions. I mean really they are family and family for the most part has drama of some kind or another. Most of my family drama stems from the fact that most of my family does not know i am gay. I think that most of them would not care if they did happen to find out, but… and i do stress the BUT…. there are some members of my family would care and make some trouble for me and others. But i really could care less about myself. The only thing i would be worried about is the fact that they would be mean to my sister and others in my family.

I will admit i did have a good time. Me and my sister and my cousins started to corrupt a 17 year old cousin of ours. While is 14 year old sister tried to act all cool and tell us shes been drinking from her fathers liquor cabinet. None of us were impressed, even though we did laugh about how hard she was trying. It was a bit sad to see her like that. She had changed much over the last several years that i have known her. But she is still the same immature spoiled brat she has always been. I think that most of what she says and does is just to get attention. I think that most of the attention she is seeing is from her mother and father. Her mother is one of the over bearing people in my family that is very hard for me to tolerate for more then 5 minutes at a time. Her mother is encouraging her to act and dress like a teenage pop princess. Ok i know enough on that. Most of you guys reading this… which i think is only about 4 or 5 people in the entire world… are probably not interested in what i think about my aunt and her daughter.

After the reunion things started to go back to normal. I came back to San Antonio and was hanging out with friends. I was thinking about going to get an apartment on my own when i got back, but i was not able to afford it because of my trip to see my family. I know that this is not the normal blog for me but i needed some time to write everything out on paper so i am able to get a grip on my reality. Im doing better at it.

Number 10. Life is sexually transmitted.

Number 9. Good health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die.

Number 8. Men have two emotions: Hungry and Horny. If you see him without an erection, make him a sandwich.

Number 7. Give a person a fish and you feed them for a day; teach a person to use the Internet and they won’t bother you for weeks.

Number 6. Some people are like a Slinky … not really good for anything, but you still can’t help but smile when you shove them down the stairs.

Number 5. Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying Of nothing.

Number 4. All of us could take a lesson from the weather. It pays no attention to criticism.

Number 3. Why does a slight tax increase cost you $200.00 and a substantial tax Cut saves you $0.30?

Number 2. In the ’60′s, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world Is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal.

AND THE NUMBER 1 THOUGHT FOR 2008: ‘Life is like a jar of jalapeños. What you do today, might burn your a$$ tomorrow’.

I thought that this was one of the greatest things that was sent….

The Night Before Christmas (Legal Style)

Whereas, on or about the night prior to Christmas, there did occur at a certain improved piece of real property (hereinafter “the House”) a general lack of stirring by all creatures therein, including, but not limited to a mouse.

A variety of foot apparel, e.g., stockings, socks, etc., had been affixed by and around the chimney in said House in the hope and/or belief that St. Nick aka St. Nicholas aka Santa
Claus (hereinafter “Claus”) would arrive at sometime thereafter.

The minor residents, i.e., the children, of the aforementioned House were located in their individual beds and were engaged in nocturnal hallucinations, i.e., dreams, wherein visions of confectionery treats, including, but not limited to, candies, nuts, and/or sugar plums, did dance, cavort, and otherwise appear in said dreams.

Whereupon the party of the first part (sometimes hereinafter referred to as “I”), being the joint-owner in fee simple of the House with the parts of the second part (hereinafter
“Mamma”), and said Mamma had retired for a sustained period of sleep. (At such time, the parties were clad in various forms of headgear, e.g., kerchief and cap.)

Suddenly, and without prior notice or warning, there did occur upon the unimproved real property adjacent and appurtenant to said House, i.e., the lawn, a certain disruption of unknown nature, cause, and/or circumstance.  The party of the first part did immediately rush to a window in the House to investigate the cause of such disturbance.

At that time, the party of the first part did observe, with some degree of wonder and/or disbelief, a miniature sleigh (hereinafter “the Vehicle”) being pulled and/or drawn very
rapidly through the air by approximately eight (8) reindeer. The driver of the Vehicle appeared to be, and in fact was, the previously referenced Claus.

Said Claus was providing specific direction, instruction, and guidance to the approximately eight (8) reindeer and specifically identified the animal co-conspirators by name:
Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donner, and Blitzen (hereinafter “the Deer”). (Upon information and belief, it is further asserted that an additional co-conspirator named “Rudolph” may have been involved.)

The party of the first part witnessed Claus, the Vehicle, and the Deer intentionally and willfully trespass upon the roofs of several residences located adjacent to and in the
vicinity of the House, and noted that the Vehicle was heavily laden with packages, toys, and other items of unknown origin or nature. Suddenly, without prior invitation or permission, either express or implied, the Vehicle arrived at the House, and Claus entered said House via the chimney.

Said Claus was clad in a red fur suit, which was partially covered with residue from the chimney, and he carried a large sack containing a portion of the aforementioned packages, toys, and other unknown items. He was smoking what appeared to be tobacco in a small pipe in blatant violation of local ordinances and health regulations.

Claus did not speak, but immediately began to fill the stockings of the minor children, which hung adjacent to the chimney, with toys and other small gifts. (Said items did not, however, constitute “gifts” to said minor pursuant to the applicable provisions of the U.S. Tax Code.)

Upon completion of such task, Claus touched the side of his nose and flew, rose, and/or ascended up the chimney of the House to the roof where the Vehicle and Deer waited and/or served as “lookouts.” Claus immediately departed for an unknown destination.

However, prior to the departure of the Vehicle, Deer, and Claus from said House, the party of the first part did hear Claus state and/or exclaim: “Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!” Or words to that effect.

Is that not some funny shit???

This is the Riverwalk at night with lights hanging from the trees.

This is a cool pic taken of down the river.

Remember the Alamo!!!

The Christmas Tree at the Alamo…

This is Cool!!!!!  I know you cant see it but its so cool….

One of the greatest ornaments I have ever seen… Its a black board that says:

• World History
• American History
• Texas History
• History of UT Texas VS Texas A&M

It was one of the greatest things I have seen in a long time…

I enjoyed this trip out of the apartment and into downtown.   I am hoping to start to explore the city more now that I have money.    Until next time you guys.  Keep reading and keep in touch!!!!

T’was The Night Before Christmas…. Insurance Style!!!!

T’was the night before Christmas (12:01 A.M. EST 12/25/2007) and all through the house (single family, masonry veneer 1 1/2 story with basement, 1128 ground floor sq. ft. 5-6 corners, territory 68, PC 1)

Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse (through pride of ownership and excellent maintenance.) The (flame retardant) stockings were hung by the (contractor installed) chimney with care in hopes that St. Nicholas would soon be there (in spite of dead-bolt locks and ADT central station alarm system, certificate on file.)

The children (ages 4,8,14 & 16) were all nestled snug in their beds (check MVR on 16 year old – possible undisclosed driver) While visions of sugar plums danced in their heads (must check for drug use.)

Mama in her kerchief (scheduled heirloom) and I in my cap had just settled down for a long winters nap (check employment – is insured sleeping all day?)

When out on the lawn there arose such a clatter (check into condition of premises, housekeeping etc), I jumped out of bed to see what was the matter. Away to the window I flew like a flash, threw back the curtains and tore open the sash (intentional destructive act – no coverage. Also, as far as we know, insured only wearing a cap in front of uncovered window.)

What to my wondrous eyes should appear but a miniature sleigh and 8 tiny reindeer (note to check if sleigh rated business use and corporate owned). With a little old driver, so lively and quick, I knew in a moment it must be St. Nick (order medical on 600 year old driver; notify life underwriter for possible table rating).

More rapid than eagles (check MVR for speeding violations) his coursers they came, and he whistled and shouted and called them by name (possible aggressive driver?): Now Dasher (turbo equip?) now Dancer (classic?) now Prancer now Vixen, On Comet (possible muscle deer), on Cupid, on Donner (4×4) and Blitzen (possible drinking problem?).

To the top of the porch to the top of the wall (check for structural damage also look into height exposures), Now dash away, dash away, dash away all. (also old man climbing walls either in great shape or overly medicated?) So up to the house-top the coursers they flew, with the sleigh full of toys and St. Nicholas too (check for possible retail delivery classification of autos).

And then, in a twinkling, I heard on the roof the prancing and pawing of each little hoof (check for shingle damage also classification of operations; roofing is a prohibited class). As I drew in my head and was turning around, down the chimney St. Nicholas came with a bound. He was dressed all in fur (scheduled items) from his head to his foot and his clothes were all tarnished with ashes and soot (part time job as firefighter?). A bundle of toys he had flung on his back (Check to see if insured has safety committee, check lifting training) And he looked like a peddler just opening his pack.

His eyes how they twinkled, His dimples how merry, His cheeks were like roses, His nose like cherry (order updated medical report, possible alcohol drinking abuse). The stump of a pipe he held tight in his teeth (note – not eligible for non-tobacco discount). And the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath (check batteries in smoke alarms to make sure operational). He was chubby and plump, a right jolly old elf (overweight for height – additional table rating?).

And I laughed when I saw him in spite of myself. A wink of his eye and a twist of his head, soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread (home invasion, stranger enters past alarm and insured not worried? Possible moral risk). He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work, and filled all the stockings; then turned with a jerk (review workplace for ergonomic compliance). And laying his finger side of his nose (obscene gesture?) And giving a nod, up the chimney he rose (check operations, chimney sweeps are prohibited classification, look into CGL PD deductible.)

He sprang to his sleigh, to his team gave a whistle, and away they all flew like the down of a thistle (not likely with fat man and sleigh full of toys. Check GVW for proper classification, Light/Service/Local seems unlikely). But I heard him exclaim as he drove out of sight, “Happy Christmas to all, and to all a good night!” (Check hours of operation, 24hr service operations prohibited. Also check into seasonal nature of business and limits of liability).

ORDER NEW LOSS CONTROL – DIARY FOR 02/01/08 TO DISCUSS WITH AGENT.

Peter,

I wanted to let you know that I am your secret Santa. I did get you a gift but unfortunately I am not able to give it to you at work due to it not being very work appropriate. But I will be at the party tonight and I will give it to you then…

Love,

Then I signed my name and added XOXOXO at the bottom.

It was great I had a friend of mine kiss the outside and someone else in pretty girly handwriting write his name so he would not know it was from me until he opened it up and read the letter. He was red when he opened it. I think he was a bit scared at what I could have gotten him. I had told a few coworkers about the gag I was going to play on Peter so they would not freak out when he went to them asking what he should do. It was quite funny to watch all this unfold. But the day went on, and when it was time to leave work I was excited. It was time to party. So I went home and got his gift and then left to head out to the party. When I got there everyone who was there knew what was going on. So they knew what I got him and also what he was thinking I got him. So they kept egging him on. I handed him his gift and then said Merry Christmas. He opened it and had a very relived expression on his face. Everyone in the group was laughing. It was only the two bottles of wine I got him and nothing more.

The rest of the gift exchange went well. So I fianly found out who got me in the Secret Santa thing, it was Jessica. She ended up getting me a shot glass set. I love it its so cool. See here is a picture.

Are they not some of the coolest ones you have ever seen????

Until next time folks.

Some of you know that I am moving out of this city I am currently living in, so I will be able to get a better paying job and career.  I am looking for a new path in live that does not have anything to do more with this town.  I am not saying that it is a bad place to live, but it is not a good place for me to live any longer.  So I made a decision to move out of this place.  I have a better paying job already and have had several people to contact me about other places of employment.  Everything is moving very fast right now, and I am liking that fact.

Well there is a large Oh By The Way that happened this weekend.  I went to San Antonio and got drunk with a friend of mine in under two hours.  That was the fun part.  The drive back to here from there sucked.  But despite a small hangover I was OK this weekend until Sunday night when somehow my ex-boyfriend got a hold of me.  The way he did it was a very roundabout way.   He had to go through two of my friends just to find out anything about me.  So he contacted me.  He wanted to tell me he was sorry for the way that he treated me.  He told me he still thought about me and missed me everyday.  He said he hoped that I find someone that will treat me a thousand times better then he ever did, and when I find that someone that he will be happy for me, because I deserve happiness.

I really didn’t know what to say to this.  He was telling me he was sorry.  He wanted me to be happy.  He wanted me to forgive him for all the BULL SHIT he put me through.   And what I wanted that instant he contacted me was to beat him upside the head.

I will no longer be talking to him ever again.  I told him that he will find someone someday that will be right for him.  But that person is not me any more.  I wished him luck in whatever he wants to do in live.  Kissed him on the cheek and sent him on his way, with telling him that he would best not show his face over where I live any more since I was moving out of town, and would not be back.

I felt sorry for him after he left.  He looked so sad and so disappointed.   I guess now that I saw him for the last time that I am finally done with him.